Letting him go

Advice #10

(This is for you guys out there too)

You know who I'm talking about.

Him.

The one person you know that has the capability to take your breath away just by looking at you.
That grin he has.
That hair you just want to run your fingers through.
Those eyes, my god those eyes.


But here's the thing; he's just your crush.
And that's the hard part.

You have a couple of classes (all of them if you're lucky) with him. And my god they're the best classes of the day.

But you've never been more than friends. And that kills you.

Lately, I've been really crushing on, well...him. 

And we've never really been close, because honestly, he's too good for me. 

He's so gorgeous...he can be a jerk sometimes, but he's so funny. His eyes...

Well, anyway, he's popular. And like Taylor Swift, I'm melting as he walks by to talk to another girl. 

And we've been getting closer, which just absolutely makes my day so much more worth it. Those first two classes I have are with him, and they're the best classes of the day. He makes me want to go to school. 

Well, like I said, we've never really been that close (But closer than a lot of people there. He at least talks to me sometimes, which is actually really good considering he doesn't even talk to half the freshmen) but I've been slowly hoping we'd get closer. But then it dawned on me; what if we don't have any classes together next year?

So, as you can see, I've been getting my hopes up really high. Well, today on facebook, he posted that, "Talking on the phone to *insert pretty girl's name* makes me smile"

And it crushed me.

Why can't I make him smile? 

I've never understood why. And I've been doing all of these things, like getting up early to make myself look extra good, hoping that one day he'll finally notice me.

But he hasn't.

And...he won't.

Which leads me to advice #10; Letting him go.

1. Stop getting your hopes up for this guy. 

He doesn't notice you, and hoping he does every day is just gonna make it crush you even more when he doesn't. This is literally setting yourself up to break. 

2. Stop deeming yourself un-worthy. 

You are worthy. My god, you're so much more worthy of anybody than you could ever think. You are valuable; any guy would be lucky to have you. No, don't give me that. It's true. And I need you to know this. If he isn't going to notice anything you do for him, he isn't worth being around. Like I've said before, if you have to change yourself to be around him, you need to let him go.

3. Be yourself.

Yes, I understand you've been hearing this cheesy-ass saying since your days in pigtails watching Disney channel. But there isn't a better time for you to enforce this than now; just be yourself. Don't go that extra mile for anybody else but you. You're the only person that you need to make happy, so don't spend your days acting like an acceptable human being for the sake of how everybody else is acting. Do what you want, for your sake. If you be yourself, then you'll naturally attract more people. The less you care what others think, the better your life will be. 

4. Don't care what they think of you.

Going with what I said before, the less you care the better your life will be. If you decide to wear a dress for no apparent reason, and other people will judge you for that because it's "weird", do it. If it makes you happy, just do it. Other people are always going to be judgmental a**holes, so the less you care about what the critics say behind you, the more confidence it'll give you to stand up for yourself. If you're doing something to make yourself happy and get through the day, then who are they to say that's wrong?

5. Don't listen to taylor swift.

All of her songs are about breakups. It'll make it a lot worse.

Try to find some music that'll enforce happiness or talk about something positive, rather than hearing "he's the reason for the tear drops on my guitar" because that'll just make it worse.

One more thing before you carry on with your life;

don't compare yourself to the people he does talk to. If you do that, you'll just end up breaking yourself down and faking yourself to please him. As you do that, you lose who you really are, and as a teenager it's already hard enough figuring out who that is. So live for yourself, and put his picture down tonight. Focus on important things that'll actually end up sculpting your life, and give him something to be jealous of. Because while he's breaking hearts with a flip of his hair, you'll be changing the world. And that means something.

Stay yourself♥

~Evie