It's a sad day for the MCRmy.

I just can't see this as the end for them. This will probably just be a long hiatus. 

This won't be the last we see of MCR. 

-Evie

Playground Eyes

 This is a quote that really has me thinking lately. I'm actually really surprised I haven't seen it around more, because it really means a lot to me. And since I couldn't find really anything about how beautifully meaningful it is, I decided to make a tumblr-esque picture about it like most meaningful quotes have, and elaborate a little bit about why it means so much to me. ♥

So, I stumbled upon this quote when I was listening to My Chemical Romance's song S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W, and as I was listening, the term "playground eyes" really caught my eye. Lately I've been kind of revisiting my childhood, revisiting memories of warmer days of innocence. And writing an essay about To Kill a Mockingbird didn't really help either - the whole book seems to be based on childhood nostalgia. So I decided that for this post I was gonna incorporate a list of little things that bring me back to my childhood and remind me of the days I've been missing for so long. So without further nonsense, here's a list of the beautiful things that remind me of my childhood:

1. Listening to a CD you used to hear as a kid

2. Seeing moments happen in slow-motion

3. Playing with your old favorite toys

4. Eating your favorite food as a kid

5. Summer

6. Hearing the flapping of a flag

7. hearing your parents call you for dinner

8. Watching the birds and the butterflies in Spring

9. Roadtrips

10. Staying up late with your friends

11. Ice cream

12. Popsicles

13. going swimming

14. finding that one toy that just made your life better

15. stargazing on summer nights

16. catching fireflies

17. BBQ's

18. Hopscotch

19. Hearing your parents sing 

20. Bubblebaths

21. Scavenger hunts

22. Finishing an amazing book 

23. Buying new clothes

24. Riding bikes

25. Hide-and-seek

26. Going to the arcade

27. Birthday Parties

28. Tire swings

29. Building "forts"

30. Watching cartoons

31. Drinking cocoa after a long cold day

32. The first snow shower of the year

33. Getting presents

34. Play-Doh

35. Baking cookies 

36. Wrapping things in newspaper

37. Making "time capsules"

38. Jumping off swings

39. Vacations to the beach

40. Your first rollercoaster

41. Making sandcastles

42. Hiding things in your yard

43. Easter egg hunts

44. Making your parents breakfast in bed

45. Chasing birds and squirrels and lizards

46. Your first time ice-skating

47. Taking pictures you'll remember forever

48. Going camping

49. Playing in the rain

50. Being free

I really hope you enjoyed my list.

Remember, when you're feeling down, just take a moment to see the world through your playground eyes.♥

~Evie

Quadruple-Whammy of the Year

Hello everybody! I've really missed posting on this blog, even if it's not the most popular thing, it's something I can say I'm proud of--and that feels good. It's therapeutic for me to write out my thoughts like this, without a time limit or a quota to meet. To be able to freely and openly say what comes to mind is something we all need in our lives.

So, it's been a while since I posted. But in that time, I've happily been able to scratch off four resolutions. And even though I know I can't get them all done this year, it feels like such a huge accomplishment to be three months in the year, with 8 of my goals off the list already. And yes--within the last few weeks it went from four to eight, and I'm really excited to share how I can happily say they're off my list.

2-27-13~3-8-13

 Dance in the rain.

2. Get my driver's license

3. Hug my best friend♥

4. Tell dad my dream

5. Save a life

6. Make them remember me.

7. Learn an entire song on piano

8. Learn an entire song on guitar

9. Meet somebody famous

10. Shoot hoops with my friends

11. Have a memorable year

12. Sneak into a movie

13. Decorate my room

14. Wear a shirt that says "Life" and give out lemons on the street

15. Work harder than I ever have 

16. Make a stranger laugh

17. Give a homeless person $20 

18. Be recognized for something I did

19. Stay up all night

20. Write compliments on paper and give them to strangers

21. Hike a mountain and scream at the top of it

22. Believe in myself

23. Get in trouble

24. Pass my permit test 

25. Live

Now, even though these may not be the most significant on the list, they definitely have meaning and a purpose behind completing them--plus, scratching off the easier ones now will make for a very interesting Summer, which I couldn't be looking more forward to. This year has already been life-changing, and I think what kicked that off was the fact that I had music with me to help motivate me. Music is my crutch, and I'd be lost without it, which is why I think numbers 7 and 8 were so important to me. Plus, it helped re-inspire my drive and love for playing these beautiful instruments. 

Now, I guess I could have already scratched off #8 by now, because so far I know four songs on my guitar, but the one I scratched this off for was learning Counting Blue Cars by Dishwalla. (If you haven't heard it, go here naaaoooo >click meee<) This song is originally what I was going to do for my school talent show, but I decided it'd probably be best if I saved it for another time. I ended up not performing, which I'm happy to say I don't regret. 

Number #7 means a lot to me, because after playing piano since I was about 6, I gave up after my teacher moved away about five years ago, even though I've always loved playing. The thing is, when all your mother wants you to do is practice, it becomes a chore rather than your passion, which is one of the reasons I think I decided to stop. Looking back, I completely understand what a difficult time I was going through, and that even though I loved playing, I think it was probably best that I gave it up for a while. And after I heard a cover of Famous Last Words by MCR, I knew I had to begin playing again. 

My mother has moved away by now, and I suppose she took all of the doubt and negativity I had coiled up inside of me for so long with her, unveiling the passion I have for one of my favorite instruments. So with that, I learned not only Famous Last Words, but I covered one of my favorite Evanescence songs too; Lost in Paradise. The next song I can't wait to begin playing is Lights by Ellie Goulding, and who knows where I'll go from there. Maybe I'll make some original stuff, I'm not sure. 

The next one I happily scratched off my list was number 10; Shoot hoops with my friends. 

This might seem like a really lame thing to want to experience, but since I've never had a basketball hoop or an occasion to do this, I felt like it's something that I needed to experience. And even though it wasn't exactly basketball (it was actually volleyball, which I find really fun actually, having never played before), it was still more fun than it probably should have been. But then again; when you're enjoying yourself, there are no limits.

#16 was really monumental for me, because I've never really been the kind of person that randomly makes people laugh. This year is beginning to prove me wrong though, because the more I open my mouth and the more I show people who I am, I'm beginning to find that people might actually enjoy being around me. And don't get me wrong; it's not like I have crowds of people around me or anything, it's really light, but I've been hiding in this sort of...shell, for so long, so convinced that anything I say will probably be thought of as stupid or criticized that I've just wired myself to stop speaking my mind altogether. But on several occasions this year, I have made strangers laugh by actually speaking my mind. And you probably will end up saying things you'll regret, which is why you need to learn to think too. I'm starting to find that "better sorry than safe" might be the quote I need to live by now, because in all honesty, if you say something stupid, who cares? You'll get teased, but you aren't going to get anywhere in life by staying quiet due to fear. You have to speak out and find what works for you in life; for me, it's looking as if it's extremely random crap or just being....me. And this year I'm starting to have more of a sense of who I am than I ever have...and honestly it's kind of scary. Coming out of your comfort zone so quickly is an extremely scary and vulnerable feeling. But it's not only beneficial, but it's necessary. You have to accept in life that you can't be liked by everybody, there are so many people on this planet that it's impossible. But if you just stay true to yourself and overcome that fear of being rejected, you start to find out things you never knew about not only yourself but the world. When you're comfortable in your own skin, the world is your oyster, and you can conquer the entire thing. 

Now if I could just lose my reluctant tendencies I think I'd be a lot better off. But all in good time, I suppose. 

Thank you for reading. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know, and I really hope I've been keeping some people interested or being of some help to at least one of you reading. Because that's really my goal for this blog, I want to help you, because helping strangers is I guess what I happen to be good at. 

Better sorry than safe.♥

~Evie